Wednesday, May 07, 2008
The title sounds a bit inappropriate at this time of year. However, I have managed to laugh a little even in the murkiest situation in my attempt to console myself.
- At my own stupidity of spending two hours grocery shopping just to realise that I cant pay for it
- At others' stupidity - The
oh my god i can't believe you just said that! Moment
- At assumptions that I'm going
somewhere for
someone. What kind of stereotyping is that?
- At a sarcastic and hopeless note from an old friend but actually indiacted how he knows me so well. *warm fuzzies!*
- At confuzzlements
- At insincerity, pretense, and hypocrisy
(this one is a sad laugh I guess..nevertheless it's a laugh)- At how crazily 'interesting' life turns out to be
- At the saying
what goes around comes around. It sure does come around alright!
- At the flashback of the past and flash forward of the future
Aah, yes. Little things amuse me these days. A tad weird. But as Dr. Seuss would say,
'.. because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.'
Labels: Rant
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
Quite literally. The sun is out today! If you lived in Wellington you know how much this means to me. The last few days have been filled with cold wind, shower, drizzle and cloud. It didn't help much with lifting up the mood at all. It's amazing what Vitamin D (ie. sun shine) can do to you!
So, after a few dark days here comes a brighter one. I really do miss soaking up the sun like we used to over summer. Yea yea, I take those days for granted but you know what they say, "absence makes the heart grows fonder." =)
My camera's battery charger is busted - so I have no camera therefore no pictures from conference. My laptop's LCD back light is also broken - there will be many many late nights in the office I can see. Lost my earphones at conference - no music for me ears *depressing!*. I'm wondering what else would be lost/stolen/broken in the next couple of months. :'(
Anyhow, the sun is out today, it's time to play!
Labels: Rant
Monday, May 05, 2008
... the tough get going?
Really?
Or would it just curl up and die?
Labels: Rant
Thursday, April 10, 2008
This post is dedicated to the many many thoughts I have and the urge to dump these on to a journal in the most unstructured way. With no order of importance
On Friendship
I had a very interesting discussion the other day with a best-friend of mine. I then realised why she is one of my best-friends, although time, space and little lack of communication in the past 6 years we still value everything about each other as ever. People come and go, but there are some rare people who will stick by you no matter what. You just need to hold on to these people.
On Family
Ah, this one has just gone completely out of control. The bottom of the story is that I need to know how to bridge inter-generation and inter-cultural gap? Or just simply bridging parents-child relationship. Parents, eh? Cant live with them, cant live without them.
On Home
Related to the thoughts above - the definition of home has become quite blurry to me. Home is where the heart is so they say. Where your family and friends are. Where you feel comfortable being 'at home'. Where would it be? Jakarta, Christchurch or Wellington? Ten years ago it was Jakarta. Four years ago it was Christchurch. Last year it was Wellington. Now? I cannot see myself living in these cities in the near future, for one reason or another. Weird, huh? Leading a nomad-life my Mum would say. Well, so be it.
On History Repeats Itself
Sometimes you wished that you foresee situations in your dream so that you can do it differently in real life and make things right. Everything that's going on right at the moment in my life is a repeat of the same thing 6 years ago. I dont' know what or how but it is actually happening. Different place, different names of course but all the same. Is it any easier? No, it's not. It is heart-breaking to see the same ego and childish attitude took over and ruin pretty much everything. It's making me all mellow and homesick. :'(
On Life in generalBusy. As always.
Need more time for self.
Need more time, full stop.
Desperately in need for holiday.
Desperately in need for some peaceful moments and seeing beautiful sunrise.
Desperately in need to be happy(er).
Excited with moving on.
Counting down.
Labels: Rant, thoughts
Thursday, March 27, 2008
I am in a cross road now as whatever decision made will determine my life path in the next year or so. I have been talking to my dearest friends, families and of course my dear parents. What I want to do next year and where I want to go. I always thought knowing what you want, knowing where you want to be are good things. Apparently the answer is not always.
This comes back to the discussion I brought up quite a while ago. The discussion of parents and families and their wishes. The very same discussion that I have brought up a gazillion times before - virtually and actually.
Like always, the question revolves around, "What next?" Yes, that very same old question that has been asked from year to year.
When do you draw that line between being selfish and selfless? When do you make compromise about your needs and the need of others? When do you have to make that fair call that would satisfy you and everyone else? Why should I- life is unfair after all. The most importantly is how?
So far I fail to see how I can take the perfect decision. This is ironic, as an MCP, I have learnt quite a great deal about taking decision. It is far easier as you only have one ultimate goal when taking decisions as MCP. What is the best for the country. I still have to find a way to take a decision what is best not only for me but also for my family and my friends. It is when the variables start involving other people, that makes it far trickier.
I guess, whatever the decision may be, it comes with its own valid justifications. Just recently, I realised that anyone could justify themselves on anything when it comes to taking personal decision. The decision could swing from one extreme to another and no other person can judge whether it is right or wrong. By saying that though, it is right according to you but fundamentally it might not :/
One might say "Do whatever you want, it's your life and you take charge of it. Dont listen to other people." Other might say, "Put your family first. Do not regret later in life that you do not spend enough time with your family." One rule that I always go by in taking decision though, I know myself, I know what is best for me and it is my decision after all. And the greatest thing about taking personal decision is that you only have yourself to either give kudos to when you're taking the right one or blame yourself when it's a bad one.
I somehow have a feeling that this wont be the last time I'm ranting about this topic.
Labels: Rant
