Thursday, August 21, 2008
I love my French class! Coming into my second week learning French, one of the guys in my class initiated the idea to do study group twice a week after the lesson. Everyone agrees to help some of us who's having difficulty in learning and who got left behind (as we're quite literally chugging along!).
Talking about
togetherness. Doing something for everyone's own good together. Something that I haven't felt for a while. Nice. Me likes.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Thank you for the laughs. Thank you for staying the same. Thank you for bringing my sanity back. Thank you. Life's great. Never better.
Monday, June 23, 2008
This morning, I said my first goodbye. This is just the start of a string of goodbyes for the next couple of weeks. *sigh* It has not fully sinked in just yet.
It's getting more and more real by the day, though. With my on-the-spot decision on my travel plan. With Mum asking what food I'd like to eat once I get back, and if I have packed my bags ("Muuum, it's two weeks away!"). With plans shaping up with friends back home. Sometimes I forget that I have a one-way ticket and won't be back to this place for a looong looong time (And then I get depressed when remember :( ).
But, goodbye shouldn't be hard, should it? It should just be one of those things that happen in life. The cliches have it - Nothing lasts forever. Especially having been moving places a few times, it should get easier. But nooo.... my first one was the easiest and it's going downhill since. I wonder why...
Friday, May 30, 2008
I tell you a story of my life.
Many many years ago back in my high school years - I had a friend. Our friendship grew over time. There were good times and there were bad times. Times when we got told off by our teachers, sneaking out of a study tour to do our own sightseeing, hunting for good cheap food and going to the beach, the times when we're stressing up over exams and tests, the times when we told each other secrets. It was all good.
Not so long after the friendship built, he told me he wanted to leave. He wanted to ask for a transfer to another classroom where all of his friends were. He said he does not feel he fit in where he is now. I was mad. I was real mad. That was my first taste of disappointment. I told him I don't want him to leave. I asked him what the hell is wrong with my friends. I just dont get it. At last I reached my own conclusion that he never sees me as his friend anyway. What is the point of begging him to stay.
Over a course of several days he kept on telling me that he is going to go to the teacher and sk for the transfer. And for several days I asked him to re-consider. Until that day when I drawn my own conclusion. I was being mean and saying things that I don't mean. I said to him that he always talks and never walk the talk. "If you wanted to leave so badly, then do it."
Things have never been the same since. I was hurt. Apparently, he did too. We never spoken to each other since then until my last day at school before heading to New Zealand. There was regret, heartache and other unpleasant feelings. But unfortunately this is something that irreversible.
This is an old story. We're back in speaking terms again. But it's not the same. Time heals - but never forget. I should have learned from it. But, have I?
Labels: thoughts
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
The title sounds a bit inappropriate at this time of year. However, I have managed to laugh a little even in the murkiest situation in my attempt to console myself.
- At my own stupidity of spending two hours grocery shopping just to realise that I cant pay for it
- At others' stupidity - The
oh my god i can't believe you just said that! Moment
- At assumptions that I'm going
somewhere for
someone. What kind of stereotyping is that?
- At a sarcastic and hopeless note from an old friend but actually indiacted how he knows me so well. *warm fuzzies!*
- At confuzzlements
- At insincerity, pretense, and hypocrisy
(this one is a sad laugh I guess..nevertheless it's a laugh)- At how crazily 'interesting' life turns out to be
- At the saying
what goes around comes around. It sure does come around alright!
- At the flashback of the past and flash forward of the future
Aah, yes. Little things amuse me these days. A tad weird. But as Dr. Seuss would say,
'.. because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.'
Labels: Rant
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
Quite literally. The sun is out today! If you lived in Wellington you know how much this means to me. The last few days have been filled with cold wind, shower, drizzle and cloud. It didn't help much with lifting up the mood at all. It's amazing what Vitamin D (ie. sun shine) can do to you!
So, after a few dark days here comes a brighter one. I really do miss soaking up the sun like we used to over summer. Yea yea, I take those days for granted but you know what they say, "absence makes the heart grows fonder." =)
My camera's battery charger is busted - so I have no camera therefore no pictures from conference. My laptop's LCD back light is also broken - there will be many many late nights in the office I can see. Lost my earphones at conference - no music for me ears *depressing!*. I'm wondering what else would be lost/stolen/broken in the next couple of months. :'(
Anyhow, the sun is out today, it's time to play!
Labels: Rant
Monday, May 05, 2008
... the tough get going?
Really?
Or would it just curl up and die?
Labels: Rant
