Random Act of Kindness

September always remind me to GreenDay's song - Wake Me Up When September Ends. For some weird reason this song is always'true' year after year. Perhaps, it's just one of those months where you are a hell out of busier than usual.

Major decision making also comes sooner than usual this year. It's only September yet I already have to think about "the next step". Hmmm, what am I going to do next year, I wonder. I have postponed it for so long but this year is the year where a major major decision will have to be made. *sigh*

I had a very very interesting discussion yesterday that kept me up until 3 in the morning. What is the point of my life? What do I want to do in life? In the discussion I listed so many things that I want to do, things that I want to experience, things that I want to achieve. But for my dearly beloved counsin whom I grow up with - her aim in life is just one - she wants to make her parents happy.

Making my parents happy. It's not a conept unheard of. I am sure, by default, every child wants to make their parents happy and proud. But the question is in what way? How? By abiding to every rules set, by following parent's every wish?

After that long discussion - the what and how of it is still beyond me. Because unfortunately what my parents want and what I want are completely different although I do understand where they are coming from. If that's the case - am I selfish then? I do feel like a completely selfish person. Other people might see it differently and would tell me I should not think like this because it's completely stupid and that I have done many other unselfish things to people ... probably for other people.. but not for my own family - who , obviously, should on the top priority as they matter the most.

*Sigh*